I don’t have much figured out yet….does it appear as if I do? I don’t . I know the ins and outs of chronic pain, I know how much I love my family, I know I’m a good person, I know I have issues, I know a lot about being a social worker, I know what love means, I know what loyalty means, I know I have come a far away but have a long way to go. I know I have absolutely no clue what my future holds. I know what I want my future to be but I do not have it figured it out and honestly I don’t think many of us do. Some days I think I have It figured out and the next I can be a complete mess. Some days I’m proud of myself and some days I feel as if my life is a constant struggle and I do not even deserve the good things that have come to me.
About ten minutes after I posted the picture of “Life is Beautiful” we received a phone call from my mother in law that a very close friend of the family had passed away. She lived alone and was in her early seventies maybe but I honestly thought she was in her fifties. She was an amazing woman who loved Kayci and I very much. She had just sent Kayci the cutest outfit that many people on my instagram account commented on. She was not seen for a couple days and my mother in law knew something was wrong as she was not answering her phone and just kinda dropped off the face of the earth. My mother in law had the police go check things out and sadly she had passed away alone in her home. It was a huge shock when I heard this just moments after I posted “Life is Beautiful.” It makes me so sad that this wonderful woman I just sent a thank you card to passed away alone in her home.
I know how life can change in an instant; I have known this since my bike accident that resulted in brain surgery years ago. But I really don’t have much figured out especially when things like this happen.