I took this picture yesterday…..can you tell that either of us feel like crap?? My daughter has had a fever/cold for over a week. She is incredibly cranky and I know how difficult it must be for her because she is unable to verbalize her needs as her vocabulary is composed of the words: doggie, cat, mommy, da, duck, pic, apple, and banana. In this picture I am also having a “difficult day” aka difficult to deal with pain day which leads to some major sadness (not always but this day it did)
Seeing my daughter sick is worse than being sick myself. So although I was in the midst of a “difficult day” I had to really start acting silly and focus my attention on something else. I put my phone on video/pictures and started making funny sounds and singing to my daughter. She started laughing hysterically, which in turn got me laughing. Talk about an amazing distraction for both of us. I was able to stop thinking about pain and she obviously stopped thinking about how crappy she felt.
You cannot tell from this picture that this little girl has a high fever and has been cranky and sad. You also would never guess that the mom in this picture had brain surgery and battles chronic pain naturally every day of her life. The brain is so powerful. My chronic pain is very real as Kayci’s fever is very real but we weren’t thinking about it. We were having too much fun being silly and laughing. The rest of the day was so much better. This is the main reason I do not talk about my chronic pain because I try so hard to distract myself from the pain.
We went to Kayci’s pediatrician today and what she has is bacterial so we just have to keep doing what we are doing with the help of our friend Tylenol and Saline and I am exhausted and frustrated with things right now. But, I am going to walk away from this computer, make Kayci some soup, dance with her to Ellen and pretend everything is okay. More I act like things are okay the more they become okay.