People have been emailing me and sending messages saying how strong I am and how inspirational and you have no idea how much that means to me. However, I want people to know that I am human just like you. Most of my posts are about my strengths and how well I am doing and are meant to bring people up and let them know that everything will be okay even with chronic pain. I think it is also important for me to show a side of me that I do not like others to see. I have bad days, I cry, I get sad, I have days where I wish I did not have chronic pain. I have moments where I feel like an awful mother for crying in front of my daughter and not being the silly mommy she is so used to. I’m a real person with real feelings and real pain.
My friends make fun of me at times because I admire Bethenny Frankel so much. I admire her because she is real and shows her good sides and her bad sides. I follow her on instagram and she posts pictures of the real Bethenny. Just a woman in her pajamas eating cookies in tears following her divorce. If I am going to be honest and real on my blog then I need to let my readers see the side of me I do not like people to see. The sad, scared little person I can be. I’m having a shitty day but I know everything will be okay. I guess I am writing this because I just do not want people to think I am some super hero who has conquered chronic pain and life and is mostly perfect. Because I am not. I have bad days too. We are all human and we are all allowed to cry and hurt and show our emotions. Chronic pain or not lets all keep it real for God’s sake.