Inner Peace begins the moment you choose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions. It may take all of my eternity to totally have inner peace! I am definitely working on not allowing another person to control my emotions. It sounds so easy as I write that but it is a very difficult thing to do. For instance, some of the closest people in my life do not understand chronic pain or why I am doing this blog. I see it as a lack of support at times and it deters me from moving forward with it. As I have written before one of my two dreams is to help as many people manage chronic pain naturally and I always wanted to write a book entitled: “No One gets Flowers for Chronic Pain.” However, I will not let allow anyone to take me away from the things I know are right for me and the path I am on.
It is very difficult to not allow your loved ones to affect your emotions. Spouses, friends, family members etc. are often a reason I am upset. Behaviors of others around me makes me crazy at times and I know I should not allow that to affect my inner peace and happiness as I have no control over what the people around me do. I can only control how it affects me. My friends can attest to the fact that I am often times worried someone is angry with me. I am not sure what this stems from but I can attribute a lot of it to my childhood and always seeming to let people down. Not to mention, I am extremely outspoken and the filter from my brain to my mouth is the non existent at times and I can come off offensive to some but usually silly or just a nut job. But then I look back and think: “Holy shit, I cannot believe I said that!” I apologize a lot, which I need to work on as well. People who truly know me know my heart is always in the right place and I never want to hurt anyone, especially those I love.
Read this quote a couple of times. How difficult is this?? For the next few days, I am making a vow to not allow other people to control my emotions. I’ll let ya know I do. I know as I write this, this is not going to be easy!