Inner Peace

Inner Peace begins the moment you choose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions. It may take all of my eternity to totally have inner peace! I am definitely working on not allowing another person to control my emotions. It sounds so easy as I write that but it is a very difficult thing to do. For instance, some of the closest people in my life do not understand chronic pain or why I am doing this blog. I see it as a lack of support at times and it deters me from moving forward with it. As I have written before one of my two dreams is to help as many people manage chronic pain naturally and I always wanted to write a book entitled: “No One gets Flowers for Chronic Pain.” However, I will not let allow anyone to take me away from the things I know are right for me and the path I am on.

It is very difficult to not allow your loved ones to affect your emotions. Spouses, friends, family members etc. are often a reason I am upset. Behaviors of others around me makes me crazy at times and I know I should not allow that to affect my inner peace and happiness as I have no control over what the people around me do. I can only control how it affects me. My friends can attest to the fact that I am often times worried someone is angry with me. I am not sure what this stems from but I can attribute a lot of it to my childhood and always seeming to let people down. Not to mention, I am extremely outspoken and the filter from my brain to my mouth is the non existent at times and I can come off offensive to some but usually silly or just a nut job. But then I look back and think: “Holy shit, I cannot believe I said that!” I apologize a lot, which I need to work on as well. People who truly know me know my heart is always in the right place and I never want to hurt anyone, especially those I love.

Read this quote a couple of times. How difficult is this?? For the next few days, I am making a vow to not allow other people to control my emotions. I’ll let ya know I do. I know as I write this, this is not going to be easy!


Inner Peace


2 thoughts on “Inner Peace

  1. Lisa Cooper says:

    I’m 46 and I still have a great deal of difficulty not going into a deep depression if someone is unkind to me. For most of my life I let the acts or words figuratively cut a wound in my heart that would hurt for days and leave a scar. Now I’ve learned to shut off the part of my brain that wants to keep replaying hurtful things and redirect my thinking to my “to do” list, but its still a struggle.
    I find it interesting and sad that my son handles his chronic headaches better than I handle the emotions I feel when he is hurting. I keep re-mourning the life he used to have. He accepts that he’s stuck with the headaches, at least for now, and is learning how to pace himself so that he can reduce the pain.

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