“You may not be where you want to be…..but you can look back and Thank God you’re not where you used to be!” THANK YOU Joel Osteen! Ten years ago I was searching endlessly for the cure to my chronic pain. Ten years ago I was drinking way too often with friends to help take the pain away. Ten years ago I was smoking cigarettes. Ten years ago I had no hopes for any happy future: no children, no marriage, no career, no college diploma. I ended up graduating from a college in Denver, Colorado with a 4.0 in Social Work. I became a medical social worker for many years and thought my life was going to be perfect. I had arrived and conquered my pain. Well……this lasted a long time but I fell down again and began searching for that damn non-existent cure for my chronic pain. Two years ago I started going back to doctors and ended up back on pain medication: back to hell, back to hating myself. Following a miscarriage, I got myself off that damn pain medicine that is only a Band Aid that harms more than it helps and did it all on my own. Today, I am a stay at home mother to one, married to my best friend. I am not exactly where I want to be in my life. I have good days and bad days. There is so much more I want to conquer and so many more dreams to fulfill. Most of all I want to better myself and love myself more. I look back to soooo much pain and heartache that I have been through and no I am not nearly where I want to be but I am beyond grateful and proud that I am not where I used to be.