We spend so much time thinking of our past: the good, the bad, the ugly. I have lost so much valuable time thinking about what I should have done different and how I could have handled situations in a more positive matter. The biggest being how I spent so many years managing chronic pain in an unhealthy manner. Whether it had been self-medicating with alcohol, running away to Colorado and dropping out of school, or the worst when I was finally doing well and went back for my search for the non-existent cure to my chronic pain.
I could write a book (or a blog) on my failures but that energy would be so much better used focusing on the new and how well I am doing now. I need all the energy I have to focus on my health, my family, and healthy management of chronic pain. There is so much I need to work and build on every day of my life, I do not want to waste any energy looking back. I cannot change my past but must learn from it and move forward.
I have come so far in the past year and I never want to go back. Every day I want to keep getting better, helping other people, and bettering myself. My dad once said: “It does not matter how many times one falls down, just how many times he or she gets up.” I agree with him but I have fallen down and made bad choices regarding my chronic pain two times with the knowledge of what to do and what not to do. I may trip multiple times throughout my future but I am not falling down again when it comes to chronic pain.