Before learning how to manage my pain naturally I was a mess for a large portion of my life. After spending way too many years searching for a cure to my chronic pain, I gave up on any chance of ever being pain free and worse I totally gave up on myself. I had been on every medication known to man, had multiple surgeries, been to over one hundred specialists, and after zero relief I just gave up. I had run out of options. Nothing worked and I tried everything.
One day I packed some bags and left for Boulder, Colorado. I was running away from my problems. However, all my problems stemmed from chronic pain. I was running away just with a large amount of problems on my back. I began self medicating with alcohol. If you want to self medicate, Boulder is one of the best cities to be in, as it is widely known as one of the greatest party towns. I fit right in. I spent most nights drinking with people and most days eating complete crap to help the hangovers I had on a daily basis. We drank copious amounts of alcohol but I didn’t really seem different than anyone. However, a lot of the people I partied with were just living the “college life.” I was just partying to numb the physical and emotional pain I felt on a daily basis. Many days I just wanted to disappear but I knew that was not an option. I truly believed I would have to drink every night for the rest of my life to gain any relief from the physical pain I felt. After you see over one hundred plus doctors who all promise to help relieve your chronic pain and no relief comes, ya kinda just say screw it.
I had an angel in my life when I hit rock bottom who thankfully brought me to the Mayo Clinic where I learned how to manage chronic pain naturally. I am twenty one years old in the first picture and thirty two years old in the second picture. I now take no pain medicine, do not go to any specialist for pain relief, and maybe have two glasses of wine on a holiday. This is the same girl but with an entirely different perspective on life and pain management. This is the transformation that happens when you decide to take control of your own life and take the road less traveled also known as: the hard as hell route. I live with chronic pain every day of my life but most people would never know.
When I look at the difference of these pictures I see a lot of things. I see a much more in shape person, I see a healthier person. I almost see a younger person. But what I see most is a happier person. I have chronic pain in both pictures. The only difference is that the person on the left is close to wanting to die and the person on the right is happy and full of life.