When I started this blog I had no idea how much I was going to share. Chronic pain has been the root to most of all my problems for most of my life. As hard as my childhood was at times, it was nothing compared to my battle with chronic pain. There are things friends and family read on this blog that they never knew about even my closest friends. I hid so much pain and heartache for so many years. I lost so many people in my life due to my awful actions in how I dealt with my pain. Every week I seem to be sharing more and more about myself: the good and the bad. I refuse to be ashamed of any of my actions throughout my journey with chronic pain. I have lived with such shame for such a long time and you know what for all I have been through I could have turned out a lot worse. Yes, it took me many years to finally come to a place of peace and happiness with chronic pain. Yes, I numbed myself with alcohol many nights and spent most days in doctor offices. Yes, I always believed there would be a cure to my chronic pain. I always thought: If the brain surgeon could save my life after my bike accident, someone in this world can cure my chronic pain. I will continue to share my story even the parts that I really never wanted anyone to know about much less the world. If I can inspire just one person to not give up, then all of this is worth it.
No matter where you are in life, do not be ashamed. You are doing the best you can with the knowledge you have. One day you will inspire others, you may just be inspiring someone right now and have no idea. Keep going and never live your life ashamed of your story. Your story could change a person’s life.