Is it a typical day in New Jersey? NO!! I am sure anyone from Minnesota or Alaska will want to punch me right now but it is freezing here!! Waking up this morning, I could hear the wind and I felt as if I was Dorothy from the Wizard of OZ for a minute. For once, the weather anchors were not exaggerating. It felt like -17 degrees with the wind chill. I lived in Colorado for multiple years and do not remember anything this cold. Granted, I was partying most of the time in Colorado so I may just not remember. Don’t ever lose your sense of humor readers! I knew as soon as I was fully awake that my toddler and I would be inside for the day. We exercised together, did some juicing, and cleaning and she even took a whopping forty minute nap. During her nap I practiced my meditation even though there was so much I wanted to get done around the house. She has chosen today to not only be my shadow but has an insistent need to be carried ALL day. She is around twenty six pounds and as much as I love her, I just can’t do it. She wants to get outside as much as I do. With that being said, it has been a frustrating day. No one ever said motherhood was easy. And I sure as hell know motherhood with chronic pain is HARD!
After “coloring” with her for awhile, I decided to check my email. One of my reader’s wrote me an email that melted my heart. She was so beyond thankful for all my encouraging words and posts that she is managing her pain better and is going to fulfill her passion despite her chronic pain. That is huge!!! When I was suffering like no other, I was almost 100 percent certain that I would never graduate college, never become a social worker, and definitely never have children. After leaving the Mayo Clinic and learning how to manage my pain without medicine I decided to fulfill my dream of helping people and went to school in Denver, Colorado to become a medical social worker. My passion has always been to help people and to become a mother. No, neither pay well but they make my heart and soul happy. Not only that, but I found studying to become a social worker was the best distraction from my pain. I finally loved college because I was managing my pain well and studying something I was passionate about. I am sooo happy that I did not allow my fear of pain to deter me from my passions. It turns out my passions have been the best thing for my pain. When you are studying or practicing something you are passionate about, your brain begins to stop thinking about the pain. The pain is there, I just get so distracted with my passions that I forget about it for the most part.
Whether or not you have chronic pain or any invisible illness, follow your passions. I do not have a lot. My bank account is quite low but I feel fulfilled and happy. I have helped so many people in my profession and now am able to raise my daughter and hopefully more children in the future. Life can be so short, follow your dreams and never allow any fears to deter you from your passion. Sometimes the more something scares you, the more important it is for you to do whatever that may be!!