“Every time I say ‘I’m done’ I find myself trying again.”
If you are reading this no matter what your struggle is then you have done the same thing and yet here your are reading a blog on how to manage chronic pain naturally. None of us are done: some of us are just beginning, some of us have reached acceptance, some of us are still searching for a cure. It really does not matter where you are to me just as long as you are not giving up!
I woke up really anxious and frustrated with multiple things going on in my life. Have you ever had that feeling inside where you are just so frustrated you know you should be alone because something terrible is going to come out of your mouth that you will later regret. I came very close to locking myself in my bathroom and just having a cry fest until I was suddenly distracted by my daughter saying: “Mommy ook!” She was trying to feed me my cereal that I had left on the kitchen table. It distracted me from losing myself in a pile of tears but I still had that feeling that I just wanted to scream: “I’m done!”
I do not want people to think that I am just some miracle that came out of the sky that lives in this happy bubble where chronic pain and anxiety do not get to me. I would love that to be the case but this blog is about the truth. Yes I manage chronic pain naturally and yes I am very happy and thankful for the life I have. I am a proud mother, wife, and woman who is managing chronic pain in an amazing way and hopefully helping others. However, I do not want to bullshit my readers: it is not always easy. Nothing worth having is always easy though. Sometimes it just gets extremely overwhelming and the circumstances around me increase my anxiety and chronic pain. These are the days where I know I have to take time for myself and just for myself. I know I need pure silence whether that be through meditation or just lying quietly listening to the birds outside. Deep belly breaths as I wrote in my previous post. I drove to the store by myself and listened to music in my car and came home in a much better mood. I am glad I did not break down in tears not that I have anything against crying as I believe it is very healing. I already have a cold and really just do not want to deal with extra mucus: may sound odd but when I cry I cry hard.
Like I always say you do not have to wait for a new day to start over: at any given part of your day you have the power to change your day around. None of us are done: each day/hour is just a new beginning.