Let Thing's GO!

“Sometimes you need to let things go!”

For everyone who read my previous post, you all know I have been going through a difficult time. I awoke yesterday with that awful pit in my stomach that only people who have had anxiety or have faced life circumstances where you wish you could just stay asleep in your dreams as opposed to waking up: that is the pit in your stomach. I honestly had to say to myself: Screw this! I am better than this and I have come a long way. It has been an awful week but I am tired of feeling like crap and I want and chose to be happy. I worked out and had a ten hour work day as a nanny and the three of us went to a farm and picked strawberries and played outside for hours. It truly is crazy how much the weather and sunshine can change your mood! It was a long day to say the least but I found myself laughing and smiling more than I have in a week. Sometimes one just needs to act the way they want to feel. IT IS NOT ALWAYS EASY! But, it can work.

There are things in my life that I just need to let go of in order to be happy and healthy. I cannot let outside people or things cause me to lose sight of how I manage my chronic pain. I need to let go of some of my negative thoughts and feelings regarding things in my life: some in my control and some totally out of my control. I need to put myself first. It is hard to let go of things that you love or thought you loved. It is hard to let go of people and things. What is most difficult is letting go of thoughts that do not serve you. I have been spending so many hours a day and throughout the night thinking about things that are out of my control. Our minds are so powerful and sometimes I do find it difficult to practice what I preach. However, I chose to start over yesterday and I am feeling much more myself. Thoughts become things. Negative thinking can honestly destroy people and my negative thoughts have been destroying my health and happiness and I vow to work very hard to manage those negative thoughts. Try and let go of anything that does not serve you in a positive manner. You are smart. You know exactly the things in your life you need to let go of in order to find happiness.

I truly want to thank everyone who has reached out to me this week: Sam, Katrina, my friends, the list is so long that it fills me with joy. Your words and kindness mean a lot to me and I apologize for not being as available as I usually am. I do want you all to know that I truly do think of you on a daily basis and every time I practice meditation I send each and every one of you light, energy, and strength. I know if you are reading my blog you are going to be okay. We are going to get through this together.

One of my most dedicated readers: Sam was blessed with a new member to his family. His loving, amazing sister had a child on June 9th. This post is dedicated to you and your family Sam.

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3 thoughts on “Let Thing’s GO!

  1. Just caught up on your posts, sorry you’ve been having a difficult time, but I’m very glad you managed to turn it round today. I had a rough week last week too, was starting to feel like my old negative self that has somewhat been hidden the past few months and had been replaced with feeling surprisingly okay, I turned it round too after pinpointing what was making me feel so bad, feeling much better now again despite the pain. I hope that you are feeling a bit better again and you have managed to completely turn this difficult time around, which I know takes a hell of a lot of strength.
    Sian x

  2. Sam says:

    Thank you so much for that Jess. I’ve been keeping you in my thoughts and trying to send some positive energy your way as you’ve been such a wonderful and dedicated support to me, the kind of support and understanding I’ve never had in almost 10yrs living w/ chronic pain. I was sorry to hear you were having such a difficult time and really was wishing there was some way I could help you like you’ve helped me through some very difficult times so it was so nice to hear that reaching out to you was helpful in some ways. I hope you have continued success in working through the negative things in your life right now b/c from the short time I’ve known you I’ve seen what kind of fighter you are and know that you will make it through and that whatever is holding you down doesn’t stand a chance in the end. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that things get better for you. Again, thank you so much for mentioning that the emails were helpful b/c it really feels good to be able to return some of the compassion and support & also for giving my new nephew his first “shout-out”. 🙂
    Most sincerely,
    Uncle Sam 😉

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