One of my yoga instructors once told me the best time to do anything is when you truly do not want to whether that be: working out, getting out of bed, practicing yoga, practicing meditation, what have you. This picture was taken (yes a selfie shhhhh) when I was down and out and all I wanted to do was lay in bed and keep sleeping. My two year old was still asleep but after much effort I was unable to fall back asleep after I awoke from a nightmare. I woke with that pit in my stomach filled with anxiety with thoughts of life and chronic pain. It took every amount of strength and willpower (sounds a little dramatic but tis true) to get myself to just get out of bed and get moving. I did a fifty minute kickboxing routine in my “work out room” aka my daughter’s second playroom. I felt a lot better following working out and decided to make my daily juice and just jump on the computer and start writing.
What do you know: it turned out to be an awesome day. Nothing crazy, exciting happened but I felt happy and sometimes that is truly all I want. In essence, that is truly all I want. What is better that feeling genuinely happy? Peace, simplicity, and happiness are all we should truly want and sometimes you can only achieve those things by doing the things your mind is telling you not to do.
I get it: people with chronic pain sometimes are not able to do the things they either do or do not want to do due to their limitations. However, there are always some things you do not want to do or feel you cannot because you feel trapped in your mind. Those are the times you must do what you feel you cannot when your body allows you to! My biggest struggle is meditation but I always am happy I did so after the fact.