“Never give up on what you really want to do. The person with big dreams is more powerful than one with all the facts.”
I believe deep down my purpose in this world was to reach and help as many people with chronic pain as I could. I did not believe this until I learned how to manage chronic pain naturally. For someone like me who had brain surgery and spent most of her life searching for a cure to the never-ending pain, I never believed I would actually be able to manage chronic pain without medications, doctors, or surgeries. It is literally a daily job that after time just becomes habit. There are things I must do each day in order to control my pain and not think about what will always be there but in which I can ignore. Each morning I when I wake up I do daily stretches before exercising. I never exercised until I went to the Mayo Clinic where I learned to manage pain naturally. It was a huge bonus that I fell in love with all types of exercise. Pending on the day, I either do yoga, kickboxing, running, walking, or some sort of cardiovascular routine in which not only helps with my chronic pain but also the never ending anxiety/depression that this invisible disease brings along for the ride. I have to incorporate a healthy diet, juicing, meditation, mindfulness, deep breathing, healthy sleep habits, and most importantly use healthy distractions that fill my soul with happiness that pain shoots to the back burner of my brain. I used to say, managing chronic pain naturally is like a full time job and in many ways it is. However, going to the doctors, specialists, and having different surgeries is also a full time job. I tried that job: it never worked out. This job of managing pain naturally works a hell of a lot better and is not only a healthy way to live but I am able to teach my two year old daughter healthy living habits. The kid eats hummus and red peppers for breakfast as of now and can honestly get into about five different yoga poses and love exercising. Nothing in the world is more important than your health but when you suffer from chronic pain you need more support than one would need (like myself) then when I had brain surgery.
I became a medical social worker to help people with chronic pain. Although, I was able to help many people with various diseases and teach them amazing methods to manage any disease, the majority of my job as a medical social worker was sales. I know how crazy that sounds (unless you have been a social worker in the medical field) but the goal of most companies is to get patients in and out of the facility as fast or slow as possible. My last boss said to me: “Jessica, you really need to work on your sale skills, our numbers our low and the company needs more patients who can pay privately. We cannot just take patients with Medicare.” I looked at him and said: “I know I am awful at sales hence the reason I became a social worker. I want to help the people who need it the most, not the people with the most money.” That job truly got me off track with my management of chronic pain and I did get laid off because I was not a good sales woman. I had two jobs before this one as a social worker in which I made very little money but I was able to manage chronic pain naturally and I was truly happy and helping people. For a year now I have been writing this blog about my journey with chronic pain in order to help, support and give faith to people to those who suffer from this invisible illness. I am not sure if I have helped a lot of people but I know I have spread awareness, hope, and become very close with people from various countries whom thought their lives were over. Albert Einstein said: “Never give up on what you really want to do.” Am I crazy to think this blog could become well known and will enable me to help as many people with chronic pain as possible? Most people would say: yes. Am I crazy to think that my dream of writing a book about my journey with chronic pain? I have always loved writing and always dreamt about writing a book but knew it would be impossible until I was able to manage chronic pain. My bike accident took place in my young teens and I am now thirty three years old. Talk about a journey with chronic pain. I do not believe many people think this blog will turn into something much greater than it is as of now. Most people think I am nuts to think that I can turn this into a book and reach people all around the world who believe there is no hope for their life because of their invisible illness. As I have written before, the number one reason people die who have chronic pain is from suicide. Sadly, I understand that and came close to truly wanting to die and if it had not been for my dad and my grandmother, La La I may have done just that. Intuition is rarely wrong and I truly believe I can do this. It is difficult to write as often as I would like as I am juggling motherhood, managing chronic pain naturally, and work but I am not going to ever give up on my passion. I want to millions of people who are affected by chronic pain to read my story and know that there is life and happiness despite chronic pain. No, I do not have all the facts but what could possibly be more important than following my passion and helping people with their invisible illness. Of course I wish I had never fallen off of my bike that early summer day. I cannot change the fact I was not wearing a helmet and ended up having brain surgery that changed my life forever. However, I can use my pain and my triumphs to change people’s lives. I hope one day I can look back and say with a huge smile: “You did it Jessica. You went against the odds and followed your intuition and millions of people are reading your story and gaining hope and strength from it. I told you so!”