Many of you know I keep a “one liner: journal: I take no credit for this idea as it was my dad who made me one and gave it to me for my 21st birthday. Clearly, I love writing but I also love looking back each day to where I was a year ago. Tomorrow my daughter turns three, stop it: my eyes fill up. PAUSE LIFE PLS. My little groundhog is going to be three! Time is going too quickly. I want to share (I have before this particular one liner date Feb 2) to show ALL of us how much can change in a year.
2011: Worst day: The DNC was done and I have officially lost what would have been my son. I’m empty. Cannot believe this happened. Last thing surgeon said was: “Maybe next time I see you it will be for a happy reason.” Got home, Khris got me a Vera Bradley lunch box with snacks. Watching re-runs of 90210 forever.
2012: KAYCI BORN!!!! 7:41 PM: TWO PUSHES!!! THIS IS THE GREATEST DAY/MOMENT OF MY LIFE. THE DOCTOR WHO DID THAT DAMN DNC DELIVERED KAYCI!!!!! DREAMS COME TRUE!
2013: Kayci’s first birthday! Party of century, and not college style lol. My mom went nuts and got a pony to come to our home, face painter, and a magician. It was like a scene from Parenthood (the movie) when Steve Martin throws his boy a party. Downfall: my mom was in hospital and missed the party she paid for, planned, and was beyond excited for.
2014: Kayci turns TWO!! I cannot believe I had two glasses of wine and I am hungover! Who would have thought that ten years ago. Augh. Drinking sucks!!! Work out, made homemade juices for everyone, cleaned the house, played outside with Kayci and Jack, Worst Super Bowl EVER: Seahawks domination station! Make time stop!!!
Kayci turns three tomorrow and literally what I will write in my on liner journal will be so different from last year, the year before, and so on. It is insane how much can change in a year. I (we) get so wrapped up in our present issues or circumstances that we stop seeing that everything changes: nothing stays the same.
I write this journal because it is awesome but more so to see and remind myself how far I have come, remind myself of mistakes, lessons, and most importantly to live without fear because everything as you can see above works itself out. We have very little control over most things. We must let go and allow the Universe to take care of things. Focus on today, know your truth, and start a one liner journal.
Thank you for reading!