“Never mind what-is. Imagine it the way you want it to be so that your vibration is a match to you desire. When your vibration is a match to your desire, all things in your experience will gravitate to meet that match every time.”
It is no secret that I am a huge believer of the Law of Attraction and how it truly works if and only if you understand the concept and practice it on a daily basis despite setbacks in life. Without knowing it I have been practicing the law of attraction and chronic pain for over a decade. I had never heard of Abraham Hicks or Louise Hay or books such as The Secret or of course the Law of Attraction. However, the theories and practices behind the LOA are exactly what got/gets me through my daily life with chronic pain. Of course I first had to accept chronic pain and be at peace with not finding a cure. I LET GO of the need to find a cure and starting practicing ways to manage pain with no outcome in mine. The Universe already knew what I wanted: to not allow chronic pain to affect my life negatively and to be healthy and happy. I spent so many years praying/obsessing/hoping/crying/wishing for a cure to chronic pain and my expectations never left me: I would stop at NOTHING to find a cure to chronic pain. I would go into a procedure and literally expect to wake up and poof my pain would be gone: expectation is the thief of joy. Each and every time (there were MANY times) I left a treatment or awoke from a surgery I thought right away: “did it work, am I cured, is the pain gone?” Clearly each time I was disappointed and not only that but my focus on not having pain got higher and higher along with my bouts of depression, hopelessness, anger, isolation, and fear. Each year got worse even though the Universe knew what I wanted, I was not aligning myself with what I wanted: I was only focused on what I did not want. I did not want pain. The more and more I focused on the outcome of ridding my pain, the more pain I felt. I can see how this concept may seem illogical but I am only speaking from experience: my personal twenty year journey with chronic pain. I no longer search for a cure or wake up fearing pain: I let go a long time ago. Now, this is not to say that I do not do things to manage pain; I simply changed my focus from ridding pain to other things such as: eating healthy, exercise, finding my passions and slowly the Universe began to respond at a vibrational level to my thoughts and actions. The Universe already knew what I wanted but had no way of helping me because all I did was focus on getting rid of my pain and I was stuck in the torment of chronic pain: I saw no light and I lost hope.
So, here I am now and there are things I still want, dreams I want to fulfill. I am a young thirty-four year old with many more goals and dreams that sometimes I begin to obsess over, over-think, and slowly become so discouraged about not getting what I want I am right back to where I was fifteen years ago regarding chronic pain. The Universe already knows the two things I want more than anything in this world so why do I not have them? For the same reasons my life revolved around pain for way too many years: I begin obsessing, getting discouraged, anxious, and start believing without even thinking about my thoughts that I will never have what I truly desire. If my thoughts are those of lack and NOT RECEIVING, I am not going to receive them. Therefore, I must again LET GO, act as if I already have what I want, not obsess over the things I desire and allow the Universe to come into alignment with my hopes and dreams. The difference from the Jessica fifteen years ago and now is knowledge, wisdom, and although I do get stuck in the feeling of lack I truly know deep down the two things I want most will happen. What I forget is the concept of letting go.