My dad found a box of letters/cards/and the most random of things that I had when I was around the age of twenty-one. I am now thirty-four and am in a much better place than I was at this time. One letter that was found was a letter I had written but never sent to the one and only Oprah Winfrey. It goes as follows:
I need your help!!!! I am twenty-one years old and dealing with with a problem that no one can figure out. I’ve had chronic headaches for years and can no longer take it. I have terrible pain from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep every day of my life. The pain has caused me to lose friends, jobs, and many other aspects of my life that are important to me. I have been to dozens of doctors and no one can figure out what is wrong with me except that I had brain surgery because of a bike accident years ago. I’m tired of yearning to be happy and knowing I would be if my head would stop hurting. The pain is ruining my life and I feel there is no longer any hope for me. It would mean a lot to me if I heard from you!
This letter was clearly never sent and was written over fourteen years ago. I remember some of my close friends writing letters to people as well. I thought if Oprah could give out hundreds of cars: “YOU GET A CAR, YOU GET A CAR, YOU GET A CAR” surely she could help me with a medical issue. I was at such a low in my journey with chronic pain I never sent this hand written letter or the dozens of other letters I wrote. I am shocked this one was kept. However, I am grateful to read it and very happy it exists. I cannot believe I used to write in cursive! Who uses cursive writing after the fifth grade? This letter written so many years ago proves how much can change with time. With some help and guidance I saved myself. There was nothing anyone could really do for me, I had to find the right path to manage chronic pain and lead a happy life. I adore Oprah and love watching certain shows on the OWN Network but I saved myself and I am now a voice to save others. The only reason I would write Oprah now is to spread awareness of this invisible illness and share my story so that not one more person takes their life due to chronic pain.