“Sometimes the questions are complicated but the answers are simple”
Most people look at me today as the girl who has it all: health, fitness, an education, a beautiful daughter, a great home she grew up in that sits on a lake, family, friends, and a genuine smile most of the time. No one would look at me who does not know me and think I have chronic pain. No one would look at me and think this thirty four year old woman came close to ending her own life over a decade ago because of her accident that resulted in a lifetime of physical pain. Nobody has any idea why I live the life I live or am the way I am except all of you of course. I was doing some spring cleaning yesterday and came across paperwork I had when I left the Pain Rehab Center in Minnesota. My last post explained the techniques I use to manage chronic pain naturally and how I am so alive despite my invisible illness. I found my time management schedule that I used the first few weeks once I left the Pain Rehab Center. This is how simple I had to make my life in the beginning stages of managing pain without medication or treatment. When I write that it took me a long time to get where I am today I am not joking. The things we want most in life never come easy and nothing worth having, even our health at times happens over night. I will share with you what I wrote down for weeks at a time when I first left the Mayo Clinic.
7AM: wake up/stretches
9AM: shower/get dressed
10AM: breathing/relaxation CD
11 AM: Food shopping
12PM: spend hour job hunting/limit to one hour
1PM: relaxation CD/stretch
2Pm: take a walk around the lake
3PM: spend thirty minutes to one hour looking for job
4PM: Start making dinner
5PM: dinner/TV: reality show
7PM: bath with Epsom salts
YUP, every day I wrote my day out like this for a long time. I have three weeks worth of the time management sheets I used but I know I did this for a few months. Obviously as time went on, I had to change the routine as life rarely stays the same: thank God. How boring would that be?! I still made sure to incorporate two major things: exercise and relaxation CD’s. I even made sure the job I got in social work allotted me time to incorporate those two major components. My life is different now. I no longer need to write every little thing down because it is so engrained in me that I not only would never forget them but I truly love the things that help me with chronic pain. I really just wanted to show you all how simple I made my life in the beginning stages of my transformation from pain ruling my life to me ruling my life. I did not beat myself up for not living as my peers were and writing down such silly things to the person without chronic pain. Comparison is the thief of joy. I was proud of myself and each day I got stronger: mentally, emotionally, and physically and you can too.
We make things way too complicated. Sometimes the answers are in the questions.