“Understanding the challenges you face with your illness and then planning a life despite them, may be one of the bravest decisions you will ever make.”
The ups and downs and spins and twirls never truly end when you live with an invisible illness such as, chronic pain. It took me ten very long, painful, heartbreaking, gut wrenching years of my life to come to a point of acceptance of my invisible illness. It was not until then that my dreams slowly but surely began to come true. However, I have to plan my life around chronic pain. Now, this is not such a terrible thing and with a lot of dedication can be done and one can make the life they desire no matter what illness he or she has. A month ago I was given the greatest news of my life since the birth of our healthy daughter, Kayci. I am sure many of you who know me can guess what that news is but I am still waiting to share it with the world. With this amazing, life changing, news that I have worked towards for two years now has come with some changes in my daily life and how I manage pain naturally.
When I set my mind to something, I do not give up. That is one of the biggest blessings I received from a diagnosis of chronic pain. I know that if I am strong enough to manage chronic pain naturally and live a life I am for the most part happy with, I can do anything. I have to want something so badly that I do not go a day without thinking about it to put in the effort, faith, and work it takes to make what I want come to fruition. It may sound silly to some but one of my biggest and most beneficial tools to managing chronic pain naturally is exercise. Exercise not only helps my pain levels but my anxiety as well. In order to keep my dream safe, I have been told by my amazing doctors that I should not work out for now as I just got over being on bed rest. It has now been over a month since I have been allowed to exercise and it has taken a toll on me. However, I keep reminding myself of one of the greatest quotes I have ever heard: “At times you must give up what you want now for what you want the most.” It has been an adjustment but I just have to plan my life differently for now just as I have done with my management of chronic pain. I have had to find different things to do in the morning when for thirteen years I have gotten up and worked out right away to keep my brain to going straight to pain and to get my body moving. I started a gratitude journal six weeks ago where I write down five things I am grateful for each morning. I have had more five am snuggles with my beautiful daughter and spent very real time with her just talking as the sun comes up. I am trying hard to practice more yoga nidra and meditation. I am finding other ways for the time being to manage chronic pain and re-arrange my schedule to keep my dream safe and sound.
Whether or not you have an invisible illness, there are going to be times when life does not go as plan and random road blocks are going to stand in the way of what you desire. You have to keep going and find different routes and avenues to take to get to where you want to go, to make your dreams come true. “At times you must give up what you want now, for what you want the most.” I have used that quote in my management with chronic pain when pain is so difficult I have a small desire to go back to pain medication and I use it for other life changes that arise in my life. I believe in all of you and all of your dreams.